My Heart Holds Sorrow and Fear

[Yui Soto]

(((((Closed until Kenshin and I make a few posts)))))


The rain on her face didn't give her an advantage. Seeing Kenshin like that scared her. What he said, "I made it rain blood" It wasnt like him, or the battousai for the few minutes shes seen him.

Yui ran as fast as she could through the deep woods. No tears ran down her face. As she ran, she was now in the middle of the forest. She tripped on a root and fell. Her arm was cut, her cheek had a scrape, and her ankle hurt. Yui looked up in misery. She saw a tree with a low hole in the stump. She crawled over and slipped right in. She still felt the rain fall. The tree itself was still living, but the whole trunk was hollow. Yui didnt care, she sat against it, holding her arm, and panted hard but softly and tried to regain some strength.

[Cloud Strife]

-kenshin looked up as he stood up the vines seemed to break by themselves really his speed cut the vines-
-kenshin brushed himself up-
-walking into the deep he walked towards the stump and looked at it sencing she was there-
i would never hurt you what happened then happened
-he looked down and pulled his sword from the sheith falling to his knees he pulled it up the point aiming to his chest-
i kill the battosai!!

[Yui Soto]

Yui was now aggervated.
"So is that it?! Your going to kill yourself arent you? Your just stupid!"

She looked at her hands, pale and cold.

"Death! All you think of is death!" She scremed, as anger and sorrow fused in her voice.
"You say you will kill the battousai! taht isnt true! You are comitting suicide so i will not be angered! I know thats the real reason! Your wrong, if you kill yourself and the battousai- I will never forgive you! Never! Seeing the battousai's dead body on the ground infront of me will not change the way i love you, but i will regret living knowing you would rather kill yourself then change your ways of thinking!"

Yui came out of the stump, her eyes now a glowing sky blue. the Maram marks on her arms began to show, her hair whirled in the wind that surrounded her.
Shaking her head in annoyance and sorrow, her eyes showed no mercy

"Kill youself if you want! Fine! Go ahead! But you know what?! You blamed yourself for Tomo's death, and Kaoru was taken by an illness. Kenji, your only son, you dont know where he is at this very moment! Your life is messed up! You blamed yourself kenshin, not the battousai! You killed her, and its all your fault! And now your going to commit suicide in order to prevent my life from being cut short by your alter ego? ITs mutany! ITs sick! YOUR SICK!"

Yui shouted a maram word, Vina ((Rejection))


"I sware if you kill yourself, I will never forgive you! And even if i die my soul will wonder alone, and not alongside yours!"

Yui watched the smoke-like energy emerge from Yui's maram marks. It spiraled around her and seeped into the ground. It re appeared around Kenshin in a pentacle and faded again, leaving the maram mark on Kenshins wrist showing she has rejected Kenshin.

"Until you know how to save yourself from the battousai, and see without eyes clouded by hate, death, misery, and past regrets, we are no longer together, Shinta!

With that she turned and walked away, her eyes still glowing, and her body infested with the maram.

that idiot! How could he think of killing himself! I need to stay away from him. My eyes are not clouded with past regrets as his are. I dont care if he kills himself anymore- he will only affect his own lives, and it is his choice to kill himself. Death is never the answer......I should know....i grew up with it.

[Cloud Strife]

-as she walked kenshin was infront of her-
-his eyes covered by his hair-
-he looked to his wrists-
i am me
i am him
i am the one who killed my wife along time ago
my other wife died of a disease that was ment to kill me
when i was young i murdered millions with little effort or regret
the moment i gave up killing everything came back to haunt me
the battosai was there but hidden
now i am able to control him
tomoes death was regretable but also a mistake
she jumped in the way to save me but throwing herself in the way took the full inpact of my sword i loved her and i loved karou and kenji my son even though he is arogent and wants to the the battosai i am sure he is fine Sagara is watching over him i just worrie about him
my past will allways travel with me everywhere i go people will see me as the battosai
its how they remember me
also i no i will die by the sword its the way a hitikori lives and dies and all of that is by the sword
when i gave up killing i gave up my katana just to pick to the reverse bladed sword
it may not kill and never have tasted blood but its a sword none the less
-he looked up at her-
the battosai cannot kill you for you see as i love you so does he
he loved tomoe and the reason he vanished is that he was not the alter ego in a way i am
he disapeared hating himself for what he had done even though it was an accident i feel his shame his anger and sorow i feel all he wishes not to feel
it was an accident i no this
but he will never then there was karou he came out twice since i knew her both time when i was unable to control myself and my anger or to save karou so he took over to kill but he was stoped by her and i regained control
since then i have been able to control him only letting him out when i wish to or when he needs to let out his emotions and frustration
this body is a wepon its skills and experiances everything is in fighting
but all that and it still feels love is an amasing thing
-he walked towards her throwing his sword to the ground somthing he had never done his swords had allways been at his side allways-
-he looked into her eyes through his hair-
i love you he loves you
this body loves you
to loose you would meen pain and hardship
one i would not be able to take again
i lost karou
iv lost Tomoe
i do not want to loose you
i promised to protect you even if i die i will not let harm come to you and the battosai promises the same

[Chrono]

-chrono ran in-
Dont do it kenshin
-he skided and stoped sencing kenshins pain-
Do not do this we have a promise a tournament to fight live now
and live for a long time

[Cloud Strife]

i have lost so much
-his hair covered his eyes one of his eyes was amber (Battosai) the other normal-
-his hand placed on his sword he brang the tip to his chest-
if i end this now no one can be hurt by the battosai.... by me
i cannot alow him or myself to harm others
i will not
-he fell to his knees in a ritual possition-
-he looked up-
KAROU TOMOE I AM SORRRYYY!!!

[Chrono]

Kenshin NOO
-darth started to run towards him-
Dont do it!!

[Cloud Strife]

-Kenshin looked up-
-he looked at Yui-
i am sorry
-he pushed the sword through his chest-
i-i-i-in death there is peace
Voice: Darth do not stop him he died along time ago he was not suposed to live this life!

[Yui Soto]

(((wow...way to post a few times while i wasnt here)))

Watching Kenshin about to kill himself, Yui's eyes flodded with tears.
"KENSHIN!"
She ran toward him, then froze at the sight of the sword entering his flesh
"YOU Bas****! WHY!!?!?!?!"

Catching the falling body, Yui sobbed. As she ran she heard Darths voice- she mentally replied.
I dont care! I dont care that he wanst supposed to live this! He said he was happy the way he was! I wont let him end it! Never! He promised me that he will not die for me! I made him promise that! He swore to protect me! I swore to never let him kill himself! I swore to myself that I would let him live! WE PROMISED THAT WE WOULD BE TOGETHER NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!

"Death isnt the answer! It never will be! Just because we have one fight doesnt mean you kill yourself!"

Falling to her knees,
A tear dripped to Kenshin's wound, it shimmered and seeped in with the blood.
Yui's hand fell to his wound, her other tore her necklace from her neck. The crystal myrrh shard- the most powerful thing Yui owned.

"I will not let you die Kenshin! I love you!"

Her trembeling hand shattered the crystal.
Yui screamed at teh top of her lungs as she threw her head back, eyes shut and tearing.

"JIVA!"

A blinding blue light emerged from the shards that fell about Kenshins body and Yui's arm. Whisps of lightning yellow smoke/spiritual power flew out from Yui's hand. She pressed both down on Kenshins fatal wound.
"You promised me! You promised that you wouldnt kill youself for me! YOU PROMISED KENSHIN! I PROMISED TOO!" Her voice seemed to pierce the magical radiation- echoing through out the forest. Yui was using her raw power to save Kenshin. His back, where the tip once imitted, the hole was slowly closing. Yui's hair fell from her ponytail and whirled in the magic. The light grew stronger and stronger.
Yui was giving some of her life to Kenshin.
"I cant lose you! I WONT LOSE YOU!"

With a huge flash, everything went dark. Nothing was able to be seen except Yui, glowing a brilliant white.
..so..this is what it is like to use Lotis......and toss away teh maram...

Kenshins life was restored. The wound was still there, but not nearly as bad as before. The blood had clotted, his heart beating once more. It was as if the heartbeats could be heard from all over the world. The rain from before was steadely slowing down.

"....You swore to protect me.....battousai or not....." she whispered.
She turned to Darth/Crono with a smile

"I won't let him fail that promise.."

Holding Kenshin close to her, she waited for his eyes to open.
"Uido.." ((trust))
She ment that to Kenshin and to Darth/Crono

THe light retured to the area, Yui's glow ceased.
She knew that the spell worked, because she gave Kenshin a fragment of her own life.

"He will awake......I know it"
Seeing Kenshins eyes stirr a bit gave her more confidence. With a prayer in her heart, and hope, even saying uido- that made him keep his promise. He had to live. She could feel his heartbeat under his shirt and flesh. He was with them still.

[Cloud Strife]

Voice: foolish girl as kenshins old aprentis i no thepain he lived to have fallen in love again and to even think he had lost it killed him inside
-an impresion of a person appeared in the dark spikey hair, on his back a huge sword his back faced them all-
-Kenshin slowly opened his eyes-
Kenshin:C.C.CCl... Strife
-he passed out-

[Yui Soto]

That voice irritated Yui. Her eyes glowed purple *Compassion*

"I dont care! What the past is is what it is! The future is only what matters. The past life of anyone is carved in stone- Never to be altered. I dont care if he has loved someome before me, or that he has a son or whatever! All that matters is that I wont let him die again unless I can't prevent it!"


Those marks on Kenshins wrist, from Vina were still there, but they were faded. ***meaning that she doesnt hate him as much***

Yui saw Kenshin open his eyes, and mutter a name. Yui didnt understand. She watched him pass out in her very arms. She put his arm around her, and lifted him up over her shoulders. She turned away from the dark figure. She was going to take him back to the estate to take care of him further until he regained his conscience.

[Cloud Strife]

-The dark character steped into the light he had wavey blond hair black worriers uniform from a place far away, he looked over to them-

:: fool kenshin shall die what was suposed to hapen will happen time will return to what is ment to be::